Dreams

For the past two nights I’ve had dreams about my dad. It’s crazy because it’s been about a year since the last time I dreamt about him. The first night I dreamt that he had came back. When I saw him he yelled, “Kare Bear!”I ran up and gave him a hug and started crying. He kept telling me that he was sorry and that he loves me. I could hear his voice, a sound I haven’t heard since January 22, 2013. I was so afraid that I would start forgetting what he sounded like.

The second night, last night, I had a dream that I was walking and out of no where he popped up. He started telling me that I was hurt and that I needed help. He was making me walk around with him while he got me help to take the pain away. What was funny though was I kept telling him that I was fine and I didn’t need help. I didn’t realize my real life connections until I was telling my mom about the dreams this morning. I’ve been going through some tough things recently and I’m still hurting very badly. I miss my dad dearly to the point that my whole body aches. It’s funny how our mind plays out our emotions right in front of us as we dream.

I miss you dad, and quite much at that. Here is a picture of us from when I was little. Remember how you and I would run through the puddles whenever it rained? Great times, great times. I love you, dad.

– Your Kare-Bear

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Photography

© Karaline Krulish

© Karaline Krulish

Thinking about turning this blog into mostly photography. I would still do some writing from time to time, but it’s easier for me to post pictures than have to write out a long blog post. What do you think? In the meantime enjoy this photo I took the other night.

Time

© Karaline Krulish

© Karaline Krulish

It’s morning time
Time to wake up
Time to get out of bed
It’s time for me to present myself to the world
Time for me to act as nothing has changed
Time for me to put on the smile to make everyone happy
It’s time for me to go through the daily routine
Time to face the coldness of humanity
Time to push my way through another day
It’s time…so brace yourself

Until next time…
– Peanut

Legacy

My dad died one year ago today. Here is my point of view on the events that took place that day…

James 1:17-Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. (NIV)

Until next time…

– Peanut